For the past few weeks I've begun to feel thirsty. It has been a slow building feeling and it is for many things. Basically it's a thirst for things that give my life meaning. By that I mean things that mean a lot to me or that my life feels dull and dark without.
The first thing that I know that I've been without is my study of the Bible. I stated back in January that I had somewhat of a plan and I've been slow to implement it. I've been working through a short devotional on falling in love with God on You Version. I've spent many year trying to be a prayer warrior and that relationship with The Lord has been good. It is also growing and becoming more open as I ask Him for a stronger relationship. So I'm thirsty again for His word.
I've known for some time that my creative side was colorless. After my dad died I quit quilting for some time and it still feels like an effort to quilt but I'm working on them. I've only really completed one larger piece of needlework since Mom passed away. It was memorial piece for sister and mine only has a few stitches in it. I've stitched a few small pieces but nothing like I used to stitch. This stops today. I'm stitching.
These two areas have always kept me balanced and ready to pour into these areas and feed my thirst. I hope it never runs dry again. This psalm has really spoken to me from the devotional and I am putting here as an Ebenezer.
O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary, beholding your power and glory.
Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you.
So I will bless you as long as I live; in your name I will lift up my hands.
My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food, and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips, when I remember you upon my bed, and meditate on you in the watches of the night;
for you have been my help, and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy.
My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me.
But those who seek to destroy my life shall go down into the depths of the earth;
they shall be given over to the power of the sword; they shall be a portion for jackals.
But the king shall rejoice in God; all who swear by him shall exult, for the mouths of liars will be stopped. (Psalm 63:1-11 ESV)
It's awesome to feel thirsty again!